I feel like I’ve lost 3 years of my life to being ill; gave up my job and chosen career path, stopped my hobbies, quit lifting weights, lots of friends lost, nights out cancelled, holidays abroad cancelled, hypnotherapy business closed.
It is easy to read that and get depressed but what’s the point, seriously what’s the point? I can’t change anything in the past, I can only shape the present. I’m not even worrying about the future either, I really don’t care that much as I know the plans I make in the present will shape my future, anything I cannot control I’m not even thinking about.
Whilst my husband was in bed New Years Eve with flu I made a pact with my body, no more will I bow down to fibromyalgia, I will learn to love this condition and I will do the things I want to do (within reason) and whilst I was thinking this I realised that there has been some positives in the last 3 years that I would never have been through if I hadn’t have developed this condition; learning to say no to others, putting myself first, letting go off toxic people, moving into a better local job and no more travelling 3/4 days a week. Practising mindfulness meditation and yoga. Ditching all my regular medications, eating healthier, quitting regular alcohol drinking, reconnecting with lost friends. Learning holistic therapies to use on myself. Recruiting a masseuse for fortnightly treatments. Finding my super fibromyalgia supplements from USA that have made me feel better than I’ve felt for years!
Our minds always focus on the negatives in a bad situation but if you look hard enough there’s always a positive.
This year is going to be amazing and I’m going to keep it healthy and make sure I give back my love to my family and friends the support I’ve needed over the past 3 1/2 years since my back operation.
It’s took a year of changes to every aspect of my life to get me here but I have proved that I can learn to love Fibromyalgia ❤️
I really don’t feel as bad as I expected to feel. Obviously I’m not feeling like I could cope with a full day of ‘doing stuff’ either!!
Yes I am chronically exhausted and need to rest, my sleep is not great and my head doesn’t feel like it belongs to me. I can’t control my body temperature and my IBS is terrible. But I still don’t feel as ill as I thought I would.
I mean let’s be honest Christmas can be a nightmare for those of us with a chronic condition. Overeating ‘bad’ food, drinking alcohol, having to go out and travel and spend days at a time at social events which all impact negatively on our nervous systems. I mean the worse people get over Christmas is a hangover and maybe a couple of pounds of extra weight whereas someone with fibromyalgia we can end up with the mother of all flare ups, not being able to get dressed, go out or even cook for ourselves. The intense nerve pain, digestive issues, depression, skin itching, insomnia, stiffness, headaches etc etc, the list goes on and can be so debilitating it can ensure we housebound for days, sometimes weeks.
It’s important to reflect on this; there is a reason why we feel like this:-
- We have no paced our activities and just dived in head first, not wanting to let people down.
- We have drank alcohol which is a very bad idea with this condition
- We have not ate healthily (a Christmas dinner or 3 is not all healthy!)
- We stayed up later and get up later which ruins our sleep routine
- We have watched much more tv and used our phones more which has disrupted our production of the sleep chemical melatonin
- We have travelled much more than normal which exhausts our bodies
- Social occasions tire us out too!
It’s important to acknowledge why we are having a flare and then get back on our plan. By now you should have worked out what that is right?
Ditch the non healthy food and treats, stop drinking booze, rest, go to bed and get up at your planned times, pop on those uv glasses once it gets dark and don’t forget your vitamins, 2-3 litres of water a day, meditate and exercise daily, you will soon recover and feel more like you.
I think the reason I don’t feel as bad as I thought I would and the flare is not as bad as I’ve had in the past is that my head is in a good place and I know this won’t last . I’m enjoying the opportunity to rest, watch some films and eat healthy nutritious food whilst smiling about the best Christmas I’ve had since getting seriously ill 4 years ago.
Happy new year everyone