Core strength and fibromyalgia 

I used to undertake core strength and body weighted interval training 5/6 times a week, I loved it!  I was so strong both mentally and physically.  It is still my goal to get to my core strength back to a level where I feel strong.

Working your core strength is essential, I spoke at length about this with my physio and she said she was shocked at how many body builders couldn’t even hold a 30 second plank!  If we all had core strength we wouldn’t have so many back issues!


I used to be able to hold about 6-7 30 second planks in one session. Core strength is essential in keeping a strong back and a healthy back is essential in keeping your whole body strong and injury free.

In order to embark on this kind of training with fibromyalgia you have to do this slowly as the lactic acid will build up and hurt like hell.  This is why I’ve switched to mindfulness yoga for the next year.  Believe me my lower back feels like I’ve been kicked in the back at the minute, but it will ease once I get used to twisting again. 😂

We cannot afford not to exercise, immobility is not an option for me and I feel like I am becoming something I always hated.  Whenever I do a chore now I’m sore and with this condition the soreness is extreme.  Our bodies were not created to just sit down all day and I damn well am not going to grow old hiding my body under baggy clothes.  I want to grow old feeling as strong as an ox, able to take care of myself.  Not sat down pointing at stuff as I cannot even get up to fetch it.  (My poor husband),  I want to be able to ride my bike, enjoy gigs and festivals without having to take a week of work to recover.  

Read the article here.  My #fibrogoals are to slowly build up to a minimum of 30 minutes of mindfulness yoga every day, then I shall move into body weight exercising then back into weights.

What are your goals?  And if you haven’t got any then why not? 

Pain pain pain 

I am not going to lie, the pain is at an all time high as it feels like I’ve got the early stages of flu.  I felt rough this morning, had 2 cocodamol felt slightly better, went to the bike shop to get our new bikes and had another coffee, one more than my usual, felt great, Christ I felt high.  Then I crashed big time, I felt dreadful, exhausted and in pain.

I decided to go for a little trundle out on my new bike to learn how to use gears, I’d passed my CBT on an automatic bike.  Now the way Fibro works is every little amount of ‘stress’ which normally I’d just deal with, my head and body go into full on ‘fight’ mode, I either hold my breath or take fast small breaths, the pain starts and I feel exhausted.  I managed to deep breathe and kept it under control.


After an hour I went home exhausted and in great pain, like having the flu, especially in my lower back around where I have had it fused.  I went to bed, listened to 2 mindfulness meditation sessions, ate a chicken snack, used a hot water bottle and after an hour of being in agony I took 2 cocodamol, begrudgingly, as I do not want to rely on pain pills.

I’m sat in bed still, hoping I feel better so I can go round the block on my new bike to get used to it.  Then I have all night and day to relax!!  Wish me luck.

Do you have tips and techniques you use to get you through the early stages of a bad Fibro attack?

Negativity hit me like a cricket bat in the face

I did not sleep well last night.  I got less than 3 hours due to having a sore throat all night.  I went to bed, got up then went back to bed late!


I stocked up on throat supplies and took them to work 😂

I went to work and it was very busy, I hardly had a minutes peace to myself, but I enjoyed it and it kept my mind off the pain.  

I completed a 30 minute mindfulness yoga meditation on Monday and my back, each side of my body were sore after this and in Wednesday my daughter rubbed magnesium spray into these areas and they were swollen?!?  But it felt much better.
After spending 24 hours in London with my backpack my back pain has reached epic levels.  I cried on the train on the way home yesterday so had to pop sunglasses on and take 2 Tramadol, I resisted for an hour but I literally could not keep my legs still and I was sat at a table with 3 other people, I hated that I relented and had 2.  The pain relief took about 20 minutes and 3 mindfulness meditation sessions on my phone using earphones to get me to a point of delirium.  I went from crying to giggling, yes I think my new train mates thought I was mental.

The pain moved into my entire body today and as I was at work I ended up taking a Tramadol this morning and 2 cocodamol in the afternoon and grrrrrrrrrr tonight I took another 2 Tramadol.  I was laid on the sofa crying as my back pain pulsed and my skin hurt to touch, my throat feels like I have 3rd degree burns in the right hand side and hurts all the way into my ear 😓.  I was literally crying and eating food at the same time, I could not even make it to the kitchen table.   My husband came over to give me a cuddle and told me to go to bed for a while if I felt that bad.  

I will not go back on regular meds and I know I will feel rubbish tomorrow after all the pain pills today!! But shit happens and I’ll get over it.


He knows what I was thinking and yes I threw an almighty pity party.  “Why me, I hate this, I can’t stand the pain, I’ve got a busy weekend I can’t afford to have this again right now”.  He always remains positive, “Maz” he says “you’ll be fine in a day or two”and that was all it took as I answered “yeah I know”.  Normally I would be griping, no I won’t, my life is ruined and a load of other negative stuff. But he’s right, I will be okay, it’s just my body’s way of saying hey you are a little sore from travelling and yoga, let’s take it steady tonight, this will not last as pain changes by the minute, it isn’t static.

I know the retraining of my brain is helping, the mindfulness is helping me focus on the now and not the past or trying to sabotage the future with pain I may not feel.  Let’s take it one moment at a time!!

So now I’m in bed, sat upright and cross legged, having had some magnesium spray on my back from my husband, this stuff is awesome, I make it myself.  The aches subside and I’m ready to do some meditation with a smile on my face.

Patience with our ‘wild minds’

I have been reading chapter 4 of my Mindfulness for Health book by Vidyamala Burch (read the reviews here)  about how our mind wanders whilst we try to meditate and why it does the same when we are in pain.  If we try to force the mind to be still it will kick and resist and we get exhausted by the struggle, if however we let it roam and follow it with our awareness, it will settle down of it’s own accord.  Our minds struggle as we oppose it, if we are patient and focus our awareness in the minds struggle, then it will become calm.  We can then refocus on the breath or body and the mind starts to get curious about the object of you refutation.  It will become gently calm, yet alert and vibrant.


The other reason why our minds refuse to settle, especially if our bodies are in pain or highly stressed while we meditate.  It is natural for the mind to avoid unpleasant sensations in the body.  It will want to distract especially after chronic pain sufferers are told ‘keep yourself busy, and distract yourselves’ only to stop and be in agony!!  We try to avert the pain.  Pay attention to your thoughts, see how it bounces around and drags up past troubling memories and then exploits them in the future, creating stress and anxiety.  Just notice them and give these thoughts and feelings names, but not judging them and then coax your mind back to the breath or your body and continue meditating. 


Think of your thoughts as passing clouds in a beautiful blue sky.  You notice them and let them go and the blue sky is always there. 

Travelling at work. Massive fail

Well I’m sat on the train on my way back from London.  It’s a 2 hour train ride and a 15 minute bus journey to the 2 London offices.  It’s only Tramadol that’s took the pain levels from 8/10 to a 6/10.  My whole lower spine, upper back and shoulders (where I had my rucksack) right hip, groin and leg are hurting real bad.  I also feel like I have flu as I have that achy feeling all over.  I felt my stress levels increase as I sat in the train as I was in so much pain, I also felt the stress increase the pain in my back.

Mindfulness has taught me to concentrate on the ‘now’ I mean this will pass, just let the negative thoughts come and go and scan my body and surroundings and enjoy the moment.

I undertook 2 mindfulness sessions on my headspace app as it doesn’t need Internet access so dodgy train signals won’t disturb me and my stress levels have reduced.  The Tramadol has took the edge off the pain and I’m enjoying writing this blog, looking at the sunshine and the fact my dad is collecting me in an hour with my daughter and hopefully my mum.

Tonight will consist of rest, heat and my daughter will warm up my food my husband has left me already cooked in the fridge as he is working away.

What this experience has taught me is that I am not yet strong enough to travel to London but 4 months ago I did not have the strength to even contemplate it.

So when you have a bad day remember how far you’ve come and let it guide you to where you’ll be in another 4 months. 

Fibromyalgia and supplements

It took a long time for me to get diagnosed with Fibro, over 2 years after my operation.  That’s pretty fast according to research as the average is usually around 5.  Not surprising really as Fibromyalgia is a nervous system disorder and reliable positive tests for this condition has literally only just been tested…….  But even though there are a set of symptoms that we all feel; tender points, more pain in weak spots, extreme insomnia, skin tingling and burning and increased sensitivity to pain and psychological stresses plus exhaustion, there are also things that some get and others don’t, I don’t get IBS, but I eat an 80% natural diet?  Does that make a difference?  I think so? I’ve had migraines so severe I’ve ended up in A&E!  Why I stupidly drank 3 cans of coke at a party (something I never drink) others don’t.  I also get either overheated when it’s warm and get raynaud’s syndrome, others don’t etc etc.

There is one thing I have read over and over, we seem to have certain vitamin deficiencies; I was diagnosed with low vitamin D and an underactive thyroid and I put on 14 pounds (I don’t use KG 😂) in a year.  I started using D3 with calcium at a high dosage and a thyroid supplement:-


Within 6 weeks both levels were back to normal, I also started exercising by walking more and ate a high protein diet and I lost the weight in 3 months.  I also take vitamin E, CQ10, B1 and Cumin or Turmeric.

But there are many vitamins that we would benefit from taking, don’t underestimate the power of vitamins just because they are prescribed.  Read more here.  Most vitamins are more powerful than medication and have either no or minimal side effects but you just check with your doctor if taking medication.

I took the decision to ditch all regular meds as I was sick of the side effects plus no painkiller worked and I was now on Oramorph!!  You get used to painkillers and they stop working, they did me anyway.

I signed up for these:-


For those of you that have done you own research the content of these two supplements are the best I have ever seen!  I already take 6 of these vitamins at a high expense.  You can read here for more info. Read what each supplement does.   Now I’m not stupid I don’t look at this through rose coloured spectacles and think it’s a cure, there is no cure,  but I know a damn good supplement when I see one.  I have to come off 2 anti-depressants though as the sleep aid has 5-htp in it (serotonin) but hey I’m game, sign me up.  

I’ve researched this stuff to death and no one  has reported bad side effects apart from the usual ‘it doesn’t work’ but you have to give these things time and slowly increase up to the optimum dosage, if it says 2 X twice a day take 1 a day then 1 X 2 times a day and so on. Plus you have to give it at least 6 months to notice a difference. 

I have to order it from the USA but I don’t care and it may cost me £65 a month for both supplements together but you can’t put a price on good health!

What have I got to lose?  What with mindfulness, healthy eating and drinking, supplementation, exercise and no regular medication I know deep in my heart I will do this.  Plus I’ve took a less stressful path in my career into a role I did 20 years ago, stuff it, I put my health before my career.

I have to, there are other people out there living life to the full with this condition that lost everything including careers, husbands and homes and after years of struggle by making changes to their lifestyles they have done it.  So why can’t I?

Wish me luck and I hope you give me support through the good and the bad times.

Medication and Fibromyalgia

I promised you all a list of the medications I have tried to help with with my Fibromyalgia symptoms, bearing in mind it took 2 1/2 years to get diagnosed, what I will also give you is MY opinion of the negatives vs positives of these and side effects, remembering we all have similar symptoms but we are all different and no two people are exactly the same. So please respect my run down as this is personal to me.  

I do believe Fibro can be controlled but my degenerative disease and Spondylothesis cannot, with that said I do believe I can slow down the spinal degeneration, after all it’s my body and it reacts to my mind.

Here goes, please bear in mind in other countries some of these drug names are different so please look them up on google 😘:-

Co-Codamol – good short term medication for pain, gives feeling of well being when first started and created intense constipation and sleepiness.  Physically addictive and must be weaned off as make you feel like you have flu.  Made me grind my teeth.  

Tramadol – best painkiller I have ever used, make you feel absolutely out of your head when you first use and driving or working was impossible.  Worked very well but became immune to effects after long term use.  Weaned off too quick first time and felt like I was dying, hallucinated and felt suicidal.  2nd time I weaned off them I did so very slowly over 2 months and coped much better.  I now take 1 occasionally and hope to never use long term again as physically very very addictive.  Caused dry mouth, confusion, daydreaming, constipation and intense itching to start with.

Lyrica – not a bad medication but gave me  bad brain fog and concentration issues. Did not work as well as Tramadol.  Asked to come off them as affected my work.

Gabapentin – worst medication I have ever took in my life and I would never take again.  Pre operation they were quite effective but after developing Fibromyalgia they were awful. I felt suicidal, brain fog was so intense I could not even remember my own date of birth, struggled to hold a conversation and as doses were increased was severely depressed and was scared to be left alone.  I wouldn’t give this to a Fibro sufferer as there are much better treatments out there.  I didn’t realise how bad they affected me until I stopped.  Yes nerve pain has increased but at least my mental health and memory are very good again.

Amitryptyline – a very good tablet to help with insomnia.  But again I am physically addicted to them so having to take 2 months to come off them.

Oramorph – brilliant short term painkiller for extreme pain; PMT and migraines.  Not to be used regularly.  

Citalopram – a fantastic anti depressant, this tablet not only helped me cope with recovering from major surgery but helped with pain relief as it lifted the black cloud that hung over me.  But very physically addictive, still weaning off these and it’s been 4 weeks now and I’m down from 20mg to 7.5, down to 5mg this weekend.  Again cause dry mouth, brain zaps when you move your eyes, lucid dreams and increase anxiety for the first 2/3 weeks.

Duloxetene – cane off this as the lucid dreams got do bad I could not sleep.  Now I don’t think this is a bad medicine at all but again you have to be weaned off with your doctors supervision so quite frankly I don’t want to take this and let it affect my already fragile nervous system and brain!

Diazepam – great for muscle spasms and panic attacks, not effective for long term use.  You can be affected when stopping and weaning must be done slowly.

Zopiclone – brilliant sleeping tablet but probably the lost addictive on the list as long term use will stop you from sleeping normally when you stop worse than any other sleeping tablet I’ve tried.  I still use these and take 1 a week, for example if I sleep for 1, 3, 3, and say 2 hours on 4 nights I become exhausted and risk an accident on the road or sick leave at work. Bi take a zopi and can get 5-6 1/2 hours sleep in one night.

Laxido – to combat Tramadol and co codamol constipation.  One sachet a day works very gentle and is a life saver, but any laxative no matter how mild is not good for long term use.

If I think of any more I will share.  All these tablets mask symptoms we suffer withFibromyalgia and  what I want to do is treat the symptoms and reduce their affects on my quality of life not just mask them with more pills.  ALL these pills have side effects and have created other issues. All these pills affect our nervous systems and that is why I am completely coming off them.  I will keep you posted as to how I get on 👌

Please read this link for more information on any of these pills and for my USA followers you will see the other brand names.