Well I’m sat on the train on my way back from London. It’s a 2 hour train ride and a 15 minute bus journey to the 2 London offices. It’s only Tramadol that’s took the pain levels from 8/10 to a 6/10. My whole lower spine, upper back and shoulders (where I had my rucksack) right hip, groin and leg are hurting real bad. I also feel like I have flu as I have that achy feeling all over. I felt my stress levels increase as I sat in the train as I was in so much pain, I also felt the stress increase the pain in my back.
Mindfulness has taught me to concentrate on the ‘now’ I mean this will pass, just let the negative thoughts come and go and scan my body and surroundings and enjoy the moment.
I undertook 2 mindfulness sessions on my headspace app as it doesn’t need Internet access so dodgy train signals won’t disturb me and my stress levels have reduced. The Tramadol has took the edge off the pain and I’m enjoying writing this blog, looking at the sunshine and the fact my dad is collecting me in an hour with my daughter and hopefully my mum.
Tonight will consist of rest, heat and my daughter will warm up my food my husband has left me already cooked in the fridge as he is working away.
What this experience has taught me is that I am not yet strong enough to travel to London but 4 months ago I did not have the strength to even contemplate it.
So when you have a bad day remember how far you’ve come and let it guide you to where you’ll be in another 4 months.